A couple of days ago I took a photo of myself sans makeup. I have been studying seasonal color analysis for the last few weeks. I figure that when I lose all this weight I will be buying a new wardrobe of clothes and I want to make sure and buy the right colors according to my skin undertone, eye color and hair color. And, do I even have the correct hair color? Obviously, my current hair color is altered or I wouldn’t ask myself that question. Anyway, I finally figured out that I have a warm complexion. With all the information out in the world-wide web about this very topic there is some conflicting information. Back in the 1980′s I was draped with fabric swatches and after much consideration I was told that I was a “winter.” I was given a card telling me what colors would look the best on me and all of them were some kind of jewel tone along with black and white. For twenty plus years I bought and wore all the colors that I thought brought out my best features, skin undertones, hair and eye color.
Over the years there have been several people in my life that have suggested that I would look better wearing lighter and brighter colors instead of wearing so much black. I’ve also struggled with finding the right hair color. I have dyed and bleached my hair so many different shades of blonde, brown and even red. For years I colored my hair in all the wrong shades and I wore the wrong colors, so much so, that it literally changed my perception of my own eye color. This sounds completely crazy, but I thought my eyes were green. My driver’s license even says that I have green eyes. The truth of the matter is that my perception of my own physical attributes were skewed because of what I just explained but also because I never really looked at myself in the mirror all that much. When I looked in the mirror all I saw was imperfection and flaws. I saw failure and disgust. I saw a person that I didn’t recognize and I saw someone who I never wanted to become. I saw a person who just existed while watching everyone else live their lives from the sidelines. I lived in a fantasy world inside my own head and thought that I would never get to escape back into reality. I saw someone fat and ugly.
Six weeks ago today I had a vertical sleeve gastrectomy procedure done. I faced my fears and went through the surgery. Let me tell ya – it took alot of guts and desperation for me to go through surgery. I will freely admit that I have a needle and blood aversion. I could never work as a clinical practitioner. I don’t regret it at all…..except, I should have done it sooner. My whole outlook on life has drastically changed in such a short amount of time. I haven’t been this excited about life in years!
Anyway, back to the original topic – seasonal color analysis. After much deliberation I have concluded that I have warm undertones. I cannot understand why anyone including myself ever thought that I was a “winter.” First of all, I have golden brown freckles all over my body including a few on my face. I have a peachy complexion and there is quite a bit of golden-yellow that shows up in my face without makeup on in natural light. Instead of having blue or purple circles under my eyes, mine are deep yellow in color. I have a fair complexion which means that I will most likely burn in direct sunlight, but I will usually tan by the next day or the day after. My natural hair color is a medium brown with natural golden highlights. My mother tells me that I was born with auburn-colored hair. Then it turned blonde as a toddler. As I grew older my hair darkened. When my hair is the right shade and I’m wearing the right colors my eyes are a very light gray color with a dark gray ring around my irises. I also have gold flecks mixed in with the gray and one eye has a few dark freckles. Again, what was the color analyst thinking all those years ago? My mother has strawberry blonde hair with the same golden brown freckles and light gray eyes. She and I can wear the same color of foundation makeup. She is most definitely some sort of “spring.”
My eyes seemingly change colors according to what color of clothing I wear. My eyes can appear muddy and dull if I wear the wrong colors. I cannot wear dusty, muted colors at all. They make my skin look gray. Really dark colors, especially black, make me look pale and sickly. Oh and by the way, when I dye my hair in ash tones my skin looks pale and my eyes are nondescript in color. I have discovered almost by accident that my best colors are coral and turquoise. My skin practically glows when I wear those colors and I look like I’ve got a tan. Me? A tan? Recently I visited http://www.taaz.com and uploaded a photo of myself without makeup and my hair pulled back away from my face. For those of you that aren’t familiar with the site, it is a website that allows you to upload your photo and then you can “try on” makeup and hairstyles. The best part is that it’s free. I decided to “try on” auburn colored hair. After all, Mom told me that I was born with the color. I was really surprised by the results. The hair color makes my skin glow. My eyes look brilliant and sparkling like they are made of glass. I couldn’t believe my own eyes. I was so impressed with the results that I saved the photo to my computer and printed a copy. I keep looking at it from time to time and can’t believe that the picture is of me. It looks so good! I can’t believe that I’m actually saying this, but I really look good in the photo. I have lost about 30 pounds so far in the last 6 weeks and I can really see the results. My face is much thinner and I look younger.
So after many hours of studying all about color analysis I think I finally understand that at the very least I have warm undertones. I refuse to be labelled again and put into a box of a few colors that I should wear. Instead I have decided to embrace my natural coloring, which is something I’ve never done before. My hair is golden blonde right now with lighter blonde streaks and medium golden brown lowlights. I plan to gradually add more and more lowlights over time and hopefully by this fall I will have mostly auburn hair. As I shed the excess weight I will begin buying clothes in colors that actually suit me. Another thing that I’ve realized is that when I wear the right colors for me I don’t have to wear as much makeup. I have created an inspiration board with that copied photo of me with auburn hair. Around my face I have placed outfits that accentuate my coloring such as, coral, terracotta, charcoal gray, warm blush pink, warm cornflower blue, french blue, aqua, turquoise, teal, camel, taupe, ivory, rust, kelly green, warm chocolate-brown, flame red and amethyst and aubergine. For any of you reading this and are familiar with seasonal color analysis, you can see that I’ve decided to use some colors from the spring and autumn color palettes. Again, I refuse to be labelled. Labels are confining and I won’t be pigeon-holed into believing that I am something that I’m not. I accept myself just as I am, imperfections and all. After all, there is not one other person on the planet who looks exactly like me. I am beautiful in my uniqueness and it feels good to finally say that out loud!
My wish is for you, the reader, is to accept yourself just as you are. Find something good to say about yourself everyday. Do whatever it takes to make you feel better about yourself. Realize that perfection is an illusion and learn to love your flaws. After all, they are what make you different from everyone else. How boring would it be to look like everyone else on the Earth? Celebrate your beautiful self and find something that makes you happy and do it!
Peace & Love….may you find it, embrace it and spread it around!